The suspicion of an autistic child is one of a parents’ worst dread. The fact that it’s nearly impossible to diagnose it at sight just makes it that more stressful. There is no diagnosis for this, so you just kind of have to stay positive and hope for the best. For the better part of understanding this, as far as an opinion goes, it is considered a disability. Despite the support that we have for everyone affected by it, it can be absolutely disappointing when it’s our own child. Try not to blame yourself, god knows that child needs you then.